Ruthless Surrender

Yeah… Interesting how plans change, huh?

The likelihood of plans changing is pretty much exactly the same as the likelihood of people NOT changing.

I planned to recap some things on this blog, compile and polish some writing from the past year, recap my big revelation of how God got through to me about surrendering to Him. This domain was bought and sat around waiting for me to recount the tale of me, in the summer of 2017, hoisting the white flag and marching over the hill.

Summer 2018 is now practically gone, and today I sit, realizing that once again I’ve been marching along under some banner other than that white flag of surrender.

So, no, it doesn’t look like I’ll hit that ”post a formal article every month” target I’d been looking toward, but I think I will use this platform to be open about my journey, and explore what surrender really looks like for me right now.

Here goes.

Monday of this week marked the one year anniversary of the most emotional message I’ve ever preached.

The start of this week I again found myself very emotional. I’ve since spent these last several days on edge and thinking through the past year.

This blog is finally starting, and I’m going to spend the next little while reexamining the lessons God illuminated during that time twelve months ago and in the days since.

I plan to look through my notes and journal from the last year and start creating articles to post here in an attempt to re-process God’s lessons and guidance.

Two days before that message I’d hit a wall. I’d been struggling a lot. The months leading up to that Friday were especially discouraging and that day the emotional load toppled over the threshold from heavy to overwhelming.

I was done.

I turned to God and told Him I couldn’t do it.

I stopped asking Him to help me carry the load, and finally told Him I needed Him to take it.

I had moved past just “committing” this burden to God and, at long last, I had surrendered it to Him.

That night brought the best sleep I’d had in months.

These days sleep is again fitful, and stresses high. I hope to refocus by writing as I consider some of the lessons of the past year. Maybe you can glean value as I process the reality of God’s work and ponder the performance of His promises.

Thanks for reading.

-Perfect

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